Hey, must be a Devil between us…
I think theres something wrong with me…Shit that’s not true.. I know there is, that’s a stupid thing to think when I know whats going on but im trying to deny it because mabey avoiding the problem will make it go away. Maybe im trying to lie to myself, ha ive lied to every one eles. For years ive lied to them all and they only sorta know whats going on because all any one can ever really know for sure is what they see....except Sara but theres no point in lying to her because shes a genius. And Sara knows the real me. And I think she even knew the other me before I lost it…..but that was a long time ago….
i wonder if she ever thought about me. What she would look like today. If she would turn out to be every thing she hoped for. Im sorry to disappoint her.
Luke and Noah are coming home.
I guess ive missed them more than I thought.
If been left alone most of the day and I made the kitchen and courtyard look pretty damn good, if I do say so myself.
I feel younger today for some reason…maybe I ate to much cake frosting and this sugary stomach ache is bringing back old memories of the precarrotstick days….oi, I don’t think I miss them.
Im I bit pissed off now
My chores are finished and I have a couple of hours to kill. Hours, which I could have been using to bake stuff for today’s picnic. Mom made me get all the baking finished yesterday, which is fine except that Eric was coming over and I was unable to give him my undivided attention. The poor bastard was kind enough to sit patiently for an hour as I run franticly around the kitchen, trying to remember how to bake blueberry cake like that file in my brain had mysteriously been removed when I wasn’t paying attention.: groans::
I think that Corry is here; I should probably go see what he wants.
~*Marisa*~
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